So, it is time I stopped being mysterious. This isn't easy to talk about, but it is what's happening in my life at the moment, and it is - at the moment - a major problem in my life.
Since the gynae surgery at the end of June last year, I've had a problem with pain. For the first few months, I was told that it was just the healing process, and that it would subside, it would just be a matter of time - however, it didn't. Instead, it got worse.
In November last year I was told this was neuropathic pain, and referred to the Pain Clinic. Today I had my first appointment - yes, that was quite a long wait - and I have been referred now to Symptom Management, which is good, and should be helpful. The consultant gave me a little leaflet about this. It says on the front - Chronic Pain Management. And that was a bit of a shock, I can tell you.
In my mind, this has just been a temporary glitch. Just a little blip that's going to settle down and disappear completely. Probably tomorrow, or maybe next week at the latest. Now, from what has been said today, I am trying to come to terms with the fact that it probably isn't going to happen quite like that, and that I do have to accept that this problem is with me for the time being.
I can cope with 'for the time being'. That implies 'not permanent'. I can cope with that.