So, I have a problem. Since I've gone gluten-free just over six weeks ago, I've been losing weight without actually trying to - and this morning I reached something of a landmark point, and it has made me stop and think.
I've lost a stone. No cheating, a full stone. (That's fourteen pounds to those reading this who don't use such antiquated units.) And yes, my clothes feel a bit looser and more comfortable. Also yes, it shows in my face already. Just a bit, but I can see it and I know I'm not kidding myself about it.
Most people who've had a problem with gluten actually gain weight when they start eating gluten-free, but there is definitely a sub-group who lose weight instead, and that seems to include me. It isn't because I'm eating low-carb, either, because really I'm not.
My problem is not the weightloss itself. I need to lose this weight - in fact I've been trying to lose it for years! - I will be healthier without it, and my BMI has a way to go yet before it reaches a point where I will be at a 'good' weight. And it isn't going too fast either, a couple of pounds a week. So that's all fine.
But - if I carry on losing weight like this, then soon my clothes aren't going to fit. I'm not talking about stuff that doesn't matter here, I'm talking about my handknits. Things with time and effort and care and love invested in them, things that I'm making at the moment, things that I'm planning to make.
If I get back to my 'right weight' - where I haven't been for more than twenty years - then I will be a nice standard UK size 12. Although I'd really like this to happen- it would be so good! - it is just so hard for me to believe that it is even possible. I've been trying to lose this weight for years, quite literally. And here it is going without any effort at all. So maybe it is possible. But will it really continue? Will it stall after a couple more pounds? Will it start to go back on again?
So what size do I make now, with my handknits? Do I stick with what fits me right now? Do I tempt fate and make a size 12 - 14?
It is a problem, you see...........